Ive been having a miserable time lately, though it is more like this
Structures are working so I am happy, very. Now the problem is not still having a flu, is not that I hurt my back because of the right side twitching (I cant have roman dinners anymore :O not that I had any), is not because of seven pigeons being in the hospital right now (lump in the wing area, bla bla, already freed 4), it is because I tried to find a drive in drawing by itself, I love it, but it is so freaking empty that it becomes dry and annoying, it hit me very hard as I realize how dull and grey any shape can become.
So as always, I desperately need the writing in order to do anything, and I have the map for the rest of the Normalish story, five chapters, one with the “adoptive caretaker the first” Blonde Woman, another with Auroras father, another with the Actress reaction “oh I dont know why she wrote that letter” sort of a rejection kind of thing, and the final “Dear Cousin of Mine:” if I ever do that, I may finish with the Actress, or something “Farewell Song”.
And between those theres a “hospital” chapter, which is the problem that made me block in the first place, there seems to be romanticism around, so theres the motive for a drive, but I hate it, I really hate it, its the worst…. so much that I stopped doing this post for hours, just thinking about it makes me mad.
I dont have to explain it, why I hate it, right? it is, really, really bad.
but you cannot leave, you keep blacking out
or whatever you may have, just run away, listen to what I say… though the problem is way more complex than that, probably the reason it sucks so much.
But in the future, I learned my lesson, Im more proud and stubborn than ever, cause it really, really sucks…
that I cannot find the romanticism for it.
Help me feed my Pigeons!
Buy me a Coffee