Aurora 02 ~My Blood is Running in Circles~ 08

I never pay any attention, but perhaps I should
If it sounds good I pay it, and so far has been
Yet she knows the exact price of everything she likes
Or maybe not so much anymore but had interest in the past
She couldnt get any
So she memorized the prices and tried to figure out the taste
“Why didnt you just, take it?”
Thats what I would have done
“Problems” she said
Mmm, she doesnt have to explain to me
The, theatrics, of the taste, would have changed
Its not like were hungry, so, to bother so much about it
For the taste to rule over time, over you
Annoying… unless, I mean
I need these idiots to bow down to me
Im too busy already, fighting with her parents
If a piece of paper makes them kneel
Ahhh, and then theres that, school thing
I barely remember but dad said I beat them all up
The day I went, because I was being too bothersome to Mother
And it ended up worse, I guess it wasnt that fun
If I can barely remember, and then that word again
School, because she went there too
Not anymore because she did stuff as she was bored
She told me the last time she went on climbing, on and on
Really high, cause it was boring, to be down
It makes perfect sense, but others didnt like it
That makes me remember of that feeling
Before beating those so hard
Eventually she went down, and they didnt want her there anymore
Great, but now, nooooow that Im here, I dont know, someone
Wants her back, like Im gonna let that happen
Shes too busy being with me
But then her damn stupid parents, ahhhggg!
What do they need that for!! stupid!!!
But we sleep together, so they cant wake her up early without me noticing
And all the noise she makes when she doesnt like
Mmm, mmmm, mmmmmmm!!
I do everything she likes yet she doesnt take my side
I dont know what they were celebrating but we went to the restaurant the other day
And of course it is forbidden to eat most of what they had
She was waaaay too happy, complaining was useless
I was the oposite of her until something changed and I quickly awoke
There wasnt any money for the fries, in such special day, my inmediate reaction
“I want 20, 30, 50! for the restaurant, how much?!!”
Then I remembered what they do there, so 20 only, and that was too much
She was in shock, but when confused she holds, so I didnt gain much
Along the noise of “tummy aches”, “Its too much”
Im beginning to accept, she will always do what she wants
Which is fine, except that now Im paying more attention to the world around
And I have become increasingly depressed
As I see her dancing her way into it
Such magic that I do not have
I turn grey trying to do the same
And I only have my strength
I cannot close the door with the way they are living
So Im streesed, and, difficult…
Or so they say
Its not like Mother didnt teach me how to deal with
These situations…
Its just that she never saw her, cared to
Between me and her brother, it was too much
She did not want to care at all
So she was just, “that other one”
Personally, I already know the answer
And what happened in the past between them
Ritually, its different
If they were to have a child, a true child
The next in line, thats her
The one to grow with all the family teachings
Inherit it all, and continue…
Thats her, not me, I can clearly see
Im glad, and so proud, yet I fail to realize
My place on these all
Stressed… so theyre talking about this tv thing
To make me smile or something
Like they didnt know all my joy was not mine
“Dance… dance? are you insane?”
I eventually realized that, if she was excited about
Something might be going on, so there I go
This, tv, dance…
Its colorful, and, nice, with the music and all
Wait, what??!
Its a baby show!!!!

Hey, Im gonna tell you something
That came with the light of a thousand years ahead
Through the dark red and black thats coming next
I need to borrow your happiness because I have none
For that and more
You can take whatever you want
Wouldnt it be, funny, If we were as one?

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Feed the birds!!

Aurora 02 ~My Blood is Running in Circles~ 07

His puberty was me.
And then she blamed me for his weakness
Because he didnt have a struggle to mate
As I grew stronger with the rituals
Such conflict arose that…
For some time I did believe it
Then I buried it, then I stopped caring once seeing
The one that really was born
It was nonsense to feel guilty
But hey, her designs versus mine
Were so, competitive, after all
Though if she said, it was probably true
She got him when a kid but that was in the line of affection
So it was proper, and I used that as an excuse for mine
But then his engine was going
And instead of developing, I took it for my own
And I only, choose, to see what happened, after she was born
So we met but by then, she took that woman
And has that weird kid after him
Theres nothing for me to do anymore
So foolish to regret, anything.

And now those two like each other
Ahhhhhhhhhhh
And theyre so weird
Its probably because of me, of the rituals
I would like to think that they are so dumb and primitive
But I know that theyre, cluelessly ahead
Designed to be so, we would be worthless if they didnt
So even when we know
Were both very, competitive
So we like to ignore it
Theyre idiots without an education
And its not, no, its not
Of my concern, I already told her
To get away from me.
—
-And then, and then, Mother would say
-She talked sleeping, zoooombie!
-Sleeeeeeping! in the after middle of the night, I was already expecting it.
-Ohhhh.
-“Stop bothering me”, and, and, and
-Were you?
-Well, yes, of course, and I was not easy to remove.
-Ohhhh.
-So she gets up, and drags me along, and, “What am I gonna do?”, “The hell I know, out! on your own!”, and, and, you would think it would awake me but, after checking through the door that she went back to sleep, I couldnt think of anything else and slept there where I was too.
-Cool, her, not you.
-Hehehehe.

-Tree with the funny branch!
Twist, twist!
Home, home, home!
The house, the house, house, house!
-Thaaaat, tiiiiny.
-Its the house! theres mom and dads room, and my room, and our stuff, its the house! Down, down.
-Do we even fit there?
-My room, you and I.
-It is a large place, but the building is so small, can you make it bigger or something?
-Down! or Ill push push, down, down, down!

-This is my doll, and these are the hoops, and, there is nothing else.
-Theres trees outside.
-They dont let me play outside, they say Im gonna get lost.
-Ducks, I didnt see any, is there another route?
-No.
-Mmmmmmmmmm, not good.
-Not allowed.
-Mother forbid going to the lake, but, you know.
-No lake.
-Last time I saw a bum, Mother killed it with the car, I thought they were all dead, but then I saw some on the way here.
-No driving too.
-I never tought of that, it didnt even crossed my mind, funny, I dont like cars.
-Dont wear my clothes, youre too big, youre gonna break them.
-That sounds like a good idea.
-No.
-Maybe, perhaps.
-No, mine.
-You can run around naked.
-No!
—

Breakfast, this and that, their own schedule
They do not seem to get, in their tiny way of life
Hours bend to me, not the other way around
Just like Mother taught me and we did
And she, she is too tired to fight me, as I fight them
And their pitiful ways
I mock them, and their servitude to time.
Of course by then Im already awake
And by the time she does, a “baby attack!!” with her doll comes
She only has one, I have none
I never had toys, it doesnt make sense to me
But she likes, and in this poverty ritual
She only has one until it becomes dust
Which doesnt take long with the way she tosses it around
“You can get whatever you want”
Yet she waits for this one to tear apart
Its more, mmm, simple, and simple is better
Though it has to do more with the attachment
To her dumb stupid parents
I cannot stand them
Something is there for me to like
Surrounded by these many things that make me mad
No wonder Mother kicked them out
And I cannot separate them no matter how much I try
Ill support all their vices, all those things I do not like
But away from me, from us
Ill buy the inconvenience for them to disappear
I would do worse without a care, but then
To hate so much what you love
In cold and piercing blood
Though its ridiculous how much advanced she is a version of them
And I dont know what to tell her, nothing really works
“You already spent too much time with them” no
“Just let them be for a while, theyll come back someday” nothing
“Maybe thell make another baby, and they will be busy with that” worse
She is untrickable, she sees through it all and through me
Which, is better, it would be such a bother, having to explain later, my stupidity
I cannot outsmart her, so the only thing above is my strength
Its the only thing I can do to control her
The other day I was so mad, Im already angry
And these couple of older idiots came to harass her
I wasnt there cause I was at the bat
And I fell for that idiot show, I hate it all
I even paid for the stupid balls
I didnt pay attention, that she wasnt with me
And by the time I got there…
I nearly killed them, and I hoped I did, I wanted them dead
Her eyes didnt let me, why? I dont know
Mother and dad wouldnt have stopped me, but she did
And of course some police came to talk to me later, “Hey, baseball star”
“I was at the store, see? Im a veeeery good customer there”
“Have you heard of…?”
“Seems like a dangerous neighbourhood, and Im so small, why dont you take this? I need protection”
If they didnt want to, then someone higher than them would, and would crush them too
Quantity is not an issue, yet this is not something you have to explain to these people
They gladly accepted, its like they were eagerly waiting for it
Later they told her dad, as he works with them though not like them
They were kind of mocking him, and who wouldnt
He doesnt have any nerves, yet he wont go away
Neither her stupid useless mother cooking the forbidden
I throw money at them yet they wont move
I cannot buy them, and I cannot kill them, I cant do anything
I know what happened, Mother went too easy on him
And by now he thinks he can get away with it
“You know so little about the world” worthless
Its like we both say to each other
But whats important, I cannot fool her
So I was honest, about everything
And she said “No”.

Its imposible, oh, and Ive tried so many times
From very young, interested in your forms
I couldnt even imitate, kept asking why
I studied you so much, you reach so deep
Yet I have no idea why nor where
It is like, all designs were made this way
Were too little, we couldnt have created it on our own
And in such a short time, it wasnt us
So… Who made it?

“Out, on your own! I dont wanna see you in a day or more!”
Yet everywhere I go, I am surrounded by you.

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Feed the birds!!

Aurora 02 ~My Blood is Running in Circles~ 06

-Shes crazy.
-Youre crazy.
-I thought your mother was exaggerating, because of her brother, but I should have known better.
-I was thiiiiiiis close, to keep her back then.
-Will she ever speak english?
-I am not interested on you speaking to her, besides, Mother speaks funny too.
-What funny?
-You never heard her? see? Im more important.
-Thats because you dont realize how much she was, amh, mmm.
-What?
-If you were to do the same.
-I tried but I cant.
-They tell me is under control, but I doubt it.
-The hell youre talking about?
-Her, mania bursts, and everything.
-Are you going to speak english or are you too stupid to do it? ah?!
-Im not sure anymore.
-Im keeping her no matter what.
-Its just for a while, if I bring them here, and things dont work out.
-Its not a question, Im keeping her.
-Im not removing them from their life just to kick them back, its easier this way.
-What are you going to do?
-Well, thats all an excuse, if things get rough…
-Answer when I ask!
-Im gonna sharp and cut again, its been too long with me.
-Drunk on the sofa.
-Its not like Im willing to go back, Im just doing it out of, stubborn pride.
-Boring.
-I had plans of moving out, of everything, once there was nothing else to actually win, yet, time moved even faster than that.
-Mother talked funny too, though Mother hid it from me, for some reason.
-Its not like that, but the same, she didnt want you to.
-Im gonna rub on her freckles, I tell you in case those stick and you dont recognize me.
-They already kicked her from school because… aaah, nevermind.
-And what did you do at school?
-Nothing, really, nothing at all.
-Mom and you, do what you do, but when I do, you complain.
-Mmm, I guess so, its just this, tendency, to, plan for you as well.
-Is it fun?
-You really like her, dont you?
-Im giving her my rubber duckie, but if she wants to eat it, then I wont.
-If things work out, Ill find them something to do.
-Im not “obeeeeying” you, Im catching her, have it clear, I dont like changes.
-Ok.
-Are you going with your mother?
-Yes, among other I must do.
-Im not sure about that, shes crazy.
-Sure.
-I bet she is old and ugly.
-Not yet, worry not.

-Dont move anything, it must all remain the same.
-Sure.
-If I like it there, Im gonna buy a cow.
-Ahhh, ah.
-Surprised?
-Didnt you want a duck?
-I want many, but this is important.
-Ahhh, I, it just hit me.
-What?
-How much youre gonna, grow, while youre there, on your own.
-I dont listen to you anyway.
-I dont mean grow, I mean, youre probably too much for them.
-This is it, Im gonna marry her, thats why I need the cow for.
-As a present?
-No, I just want it.
-You do have enough for buying a few farms.
-Do I bring it all? kind of annoying.
-Yes.
-Wont you get mad if I lose it?
-No, take it with you, just in case.
-Case of what?
-You never know.
-What if I forget it or something?
-You dont.
-What if I wanted to?
-Take it, its my gamble.
-It is miiiiiine, from Mother, not yours.
-The risk, Ill back it, the gamble is mine.
-Now I dont even want it.
-If, for whatever reason, something happens, just take it and live with her, you wont need anything.
-You dont tell me what to do!
-Does she even want to, marry you?
-She tells me secrets, whispering, licks licks, to my ears, though sometimes she screams.

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Feed the birds!!

Aurora 02 ~My Blood is Running in Circles~ 05

-Mother needs to approve.
-Ill put it on a list.
-Supplies.
-Yes.
-There you go, money.
-See? you give people these papers and…
-Dont spend it all like an idiot.
-They kill themselves for these papers, thats how much they value their lives, papers.
-Boring.
-Did you have any expenses?
-No.
-Nothing?
-No.
-Theres so much you could buy.
-Mother needs to approve.
-Oh, ok.
-I dont want anything.
-If you see, whatever, its fine, just, keep things quiet.
-I like quiet.
-Cool.
-Was that, an order?
-What?
-Mmmm.
-You know I speak fast.
-Ok.
-The less you talk the better, be assertive.
-Sure… was that an order?
-Mmm, no, just, something, I was told.
-Who?
-My mother.
-Mother told me to crush to pieces any fool that crosses a line.
-Fine, but quiet… would be nice if it was, quiet.
-I like quiet.
-If you dont like the food, throw… would be nice if you put it in the trash.
-Ill think about it.
-It stinks.
-To some degree, in an area that does not affect me.
-Are you going to leave that there?
-Ill plan its destiny once I get the time.
-Mmm, ok.

Dont move
Come on
Only for a moment
It is just in case I dont make it
I dont know the extent of its usefulness, though
Its the truth, nothing else
Would you please?
I know, I know, yet
I thought it was a good idea
No, no, and neither that
No, thats not it, Im not playing games
Its just, the truth
What? no, you dont even know anybody
Do you want to?
Yes, useless
But I already brought the camera
You dont want to because your mother didnt
See? I knew so, its so easy sometimes
Wanna hear something funny?
You can name yourself however you want
And then change it the next day, and the next
Me? no, Im already on registry
I guess if I really wanted to… but I dont
Im too jealous of my name
Way too much, you already know why
Yet youre young, you can do whatever you want
Now that I remember, it would be so troublesome
Soooo, troublesome and annoying
But at this point I dont care anymore
Whatever, I dont mind
Its all so, tiresome, and Im
I can do whatever I want
Problem is, theres nothing I really want
Whatever you decide
Its fine
Except getting sick
I had to come running the last time
Sorry, oh.
I had, I, I thought a pipe broke and was getting flooded
Fine?
Alright, should we smile? I have no idea.

I wonder if she can realize her own strength
She keeps breaking stuff, I dont think she cares
That makes us very different
She, doesnt calculate, either arrogance or the lack of need
Most likely both, and she is not cold
Because she doesnt need to lie
She doesnt play any mind games, she doesnt have to
I was educated to value the skill more than anything else
The invisible sword of the emperor
Meanwhile she will tell you the truth
Then overcome disadvantage by crossing the river, the forest, the hills
To go back at you and punch you in the face
Yes, she is that stubborn, that, naive, and strong
Then she would laugh, telling she was right
Odd, so, strange.

-Im done talking to the rubber duck, youre next.
-What?
-Nobody ever touches Mother outside of ritual.
-Yes.
-You get the creepy look.
-And the cold skin, and the tense muscles, and every other sign of you becoming a pray.
-And the funny smile.
-Yes.
-Yet youre here.
-You know what? Im clueless of what to do, Im just gonna throw money at you.
-Like this one time, Mother filled the little pool at the bathroom, and then, and then she said “You need to learn how to breathe underwater”, and she put me in and hold me there, and I quickly did, and then I went deeper, and then I could release, and I jumped, and I, hahaha, I was sooooo cool!! I so fast climbed on Mother, and gave her a kiss on her face, over her shoulder, I was so cool she couldnt even move!! and then, and then, didnt I tell you? I knew when to run, and when to get back.
-And then it was my turn and I bought you a rubber duck instead.

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Feed the birds!!

Aurora 02 ~My Blood is Running in Circles~ 04

How come youre not scared of me?
Youre just some idiot little kid
That dumb, stupid smile of you
I would do such awful things to you
What if I locked you in a small place
And then just forget?
Whats there to care?
Or if I throw you from the roof
The sound of the wind, and then just poof
What about breaking you in tiny pieces?
I could have easily before
When you were even more defenseless
But I guess, you would enjoy it
Thats probably why I didnt
Youre such a bother, and annoyance
Drooling idiot, ignorant fool
I wont give that pleasure to you
I wont be tricked, but hey, come on!
How come youre not afraid of me?!
Even he gets an occasional chill
Then blames it on reaction
And he has destroyed so much
Without a single second thought
Thats why he is so beloved
None of them have his cold blood
Nor his looks, to make it all seen
Hehehehehe
Maybe youre too young to remember
Even the snow is red tainted
But the earth didnt quite like it
Thats why now you dont see a thing.
You do see, when I was your age
Well, if you were to know
Then youd realize why
Im not even afraid of death
Nor by instinct neither thought
Yet you…
You, you, you, you, grrrrr
You put thousand pins in my mind!!
If you ever were to…
Ahggggggggg!!!
Im gonna strangle you myself!!!!

Of course I would bring her here
If I were to capture her, or something
But what if you dont like her?
How are you going to respond if she says a single thing you dont like?
Yes, about something important
Im not gonna do it anyway
Theres a reason I havent before
It wouldnt make any sense, at all
It wouldnt be me doing it
Were too cool, and cold, and calculating
Its barbaric, I dont even enjoy the idea
Its like I lost her too
And the fate she wants to set upon me
I have done a lot of things yet I have never been angry
You know, really angry, not just upset, because
Its not part of the game, it would mean your calculations were a miss
Its pathetic, its shameful, admission of defeat
Under our gamerules, how life must be
My strength is to hold me, weakness would be to hold her
Ive been thinking about it because we kissed the other day
Really close… I havent been able to move on
Maybe if I didnt feel such general disgust
Their scent mixes with the lowest, braindead nature
The last thing I want is the burden to carry a sack of meat
You have such a natural way to punch at things
When I do, its full of bitterness
“Its like a little dessert” she says
I cant stop thinking about it
I tell you, because youre the only one who understands
Of that I am sure, hehehehe
Hahahaha
Ahhhhhh.
Hey, dont hit me
What did I even say?
Maybe its because youre so tense all the time
You grew those arms
Hey, relax
Hey, dont bite!
Dont be ridiculous, you had to be born somehow
Like you get to decide anything
I barely do… so, if I dont, Im not that much interested
I actually enjoy grey
It does help you sleep, so easily
“And then, I dream of you a lot”
What? I would never say that
Im not into, poetry, I, I dont have to
I already have it all
Do you? why would you say so?
Youre such a foolish kid…
Dont you know? you already have it all.

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Feed the birds!!

Aurora 02 ~My Blood is Running in Circles~ 03

It was this weird ritual, you couldnt just get there
She suddenly said, telling the tales of even, oh so younger
They really cared but I didnt, so I wasnt paying that much attention
Of course I know it all, I could make it happen
They wouldnt be any good, it wouldnt work
Just like me, I dont believe it
She did gave me a lower dose, it worn off quickly
I didnt like it, I didnt need it, well, I followed her
In one phase I was like, the preparation, then in the next it turned and
Nah, because of their beliefs, they wouldnt do that to a
There was plenty anyway, it was too much, they couldnt even
I pity man ever since, pathetic
Hahahaha, nonsense, it is, way too expensive
None of you can afford it
See? you cant buy it all
You thought you did, but you dont
You all live in a cage of pretend
Then say “I didnt want that anyway”
Me? did you say or did I come up with it?
I cant really remember
I dont want to do anything at all
What?! another one? yuck
You dont even pay attention to the one you have
Well, obviously…
And mainly, Im tired, I went too far for that brat to take it, and…
Now that I think about it
I get the feeling, youre not scared of her, are you?

I have this anger
Unborn, untamable
The only reason it hasnt manifest
Its the soft and nonfertile
So sad, mind of a pitiful child
Who has failed and now has no heart
Now only has its own hands to bite
After burying the nails in confusion
Sparking the firesome rage that
Hey, I already complained about everything in sight
If I were to make everything I dont like disappear
Then there wouldnt be much to remain
You, you, I guess you can stay
I mean, I might throw myself as well
The same questions, the same answers
And then youre useful when I forget and sleep
And how to eat, also to breathe
Overwhelmed, in eternal emotion
Im giving you permission to stay
I, I dont know anything else.

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Feed the birds!!

Aurora 02 ~My Blood is Running in Circles~ 02

For the first time, I had to decide on my own.

It wasnt difficult to reach the door, as I was sleeping in the nearby living room, unable to go back into the rooms, nowhere to go forward.
All sense of life is gone so I just laid there for countless days, there was nothing else to do, I was nothing left to be.
Until an annoying knock on the door, nobody ever dare to come but only one person.
And then it was my decision, and then I didnt know, it was too bothersome.
“I bet he is not used to wait”, I said to myself, “well, I guess he has an idea of now, and with me here… annoying”. I couldnt decide but then I remembered him being here before so I opened the door, a silent stare for a second as a welcome, then go back to lay on the sofa, letting him do whatever he came to do.
His tone of voice produced favorable results within me, as well as his formal manners, he wouldnt talk nonsense, just enough words, nothing more, not even hello.
After walking around for some time, he came close to the sofa, “your mother, where?” was met by the longest grunt and nothing more. He went around some more and then I heard the movement of a chair, where he sat down to think on his own.
Time turned meaningless, I dont know how it passes anymore, as I became another piece of furniture, that he simply carried away, along with his own whirlwind, I dont know when. “You cant be here anymore, its too far anyway”.

He did actually tried at the new place, with smells and lights, slowly to wake up.

By the time I eventually did, I went directly towards him, I was not pleased, “this place is too clear, the lights are too bright”, I wont be annoyed, I know what I want, he was busy taking pillows out of their package and placing them along the perimeter of the window doors, not a bad idea, but why?
“In case you feel like playing”, then I remembered, that I actually used to play, theres no point now, he is wasting his time.
“I dont like it here” “Its too far, I can barely make it”
“Whats the point, of everything?” he didnt know either.
Then is when you get angry and attack, yet… he doesnt demand anything, ever, he is just there, being selfsufficient, if he likes you he will play cool to try to impress you, if you are very mean, and very smart, and a very attractive girl.
-You know, my mother is like that.
-Mine is like that too.
-I know.
-Ohhhh… but Im a guardian, Im a warrior.
-Ahhhh… yes, I heard about that.
-Nobody ever dares to come.
-If you get bored… Im done with the pillows, I hope is enough.
-Too many of them.
-Youre too strong, but you have to be smart about it.
-Ahhhhhh??
-And I might, send someone.
-You want it dead?
-Just to… I get busy, for a lot of time.
-And?
-If I send someone, its business related, do you like business?
-No.
-Wouldnt be bad to learn, would make your life easier.
-Im an expert in supplies too.
-Ill send a letter then, do, do you know how to read?
-Kind of.
-Thats it then.
-Spies dont ever go back.
-Theyre already paid into obedience.
-Mother kicked them all out, there was only me.

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Feed the birds!!

Aurora 02 ~My Blood is Running in Circles~ 01

-I told you this day was going to come.
=Oh, Mother, Im in love with you.
-Get off, you idiot, off!!
=Muchuuuuuuu.
-What a hell?! you, dumb, I was never like this, off!!
A- Like this what? I can tell, I was there, hehehe.
-This thing is broken.
=Muchuuuuuu.
A- Ahhh, weird, its just a kid.
-You keep it for a month.
A- No, noooo, no, Im, no.
-And its too stubborn, it doesnt even hurt her when you hit her, look.
=Ughhh, muchuuuuuu.
-No! away!!
=Hahahahahaha!
-Stupid, idiot, piece, of trash!
=Hahahahahaha!
A- Ah, its like, ah… how was the moon when she was born?

Dynamics of this life acted as a fail safe against paralysis of its living beings that are not prepared for a world without any movement outside them.

Yet I dream of being a stone, constant wind along the very hours of the day, silence or noise, I do not care, and the sun in the sky made a shadow of whatever shape of me it found, in the end the moon dances, but I cannot feel a thing.

The lake, I know it well, I quickly thought it could be there. I didnt place anything special over it, on the contrary, I tried to make it look like nothing was there. So exhausted, I forgot, every reason to move, waiting for the snow to do to me what I just did.

It didnt, so I didnt belong, remembering her cold touch, oh I miss so much, once soft again, could hold all my tears, I could express the overwhelming pain, the burden of my own existence, then I did, removed all silk, and I wonder now, if all I want is to be you.

I didnt know how wonderful a dry kiss can be, the taste of motionless, the corners of frigid skin and flesh, your teeth and my tongue, the forbidden grey stare I would sacrifice all my fingers to see, oh my love, your weight embraces and takes over, for now I will carry you and me. White silk over the skin, I was thinking, if I cover your face, will it be enough for a journey away from me?

But not that day, I was selfish, I was me, the first act I demanded to be, as the new emperor of here, my lips tremble, the vibration of madness sets free, for I command near and far, the deadly arts of coming back, the King Witch, every little effort is for the magic of being froze, so I thought, so I thought, of your taste, in so many ways, as I provide, for my senses to breathe again, the moon grows larger and so are the waves, across the light, into the shadows, beyond the reach of whats told it is.

Never let it go, no, I cannot let it go, transfusion of sweet, saliva and blood, I gave it all, I reached the peak of the mountain, and then it was time to fall, to freedom, to violent grace.

I ridiculize the pitiful idea of anyone who has spoken about god, for I do not sleep, I do not eat, I leak as I walk, there is nothing in me!! I am the absolute master of everything that is there to see, and I grow wider in range, for I can witness and domain, even the shadows and the mystic rain.

King Witch at the top of all highs, approaching the point of no return, the magic demands red and purple, to combine and be born again, I will be born again.

The void is perfected, just a pause to hear the skies, what are they thinking about the massive riptide? the oceans rebel against all other elements, “life has come from me!!” it says, so it commands, and placed its king near the clouds.

The Fall of the King Witch.

Swiftly, without announcement nor consideration, a thousand thunders in the sky became one, directly to the head of the one who stood tall, rebelling for attention from everything divine. Electric domain of all the nerves, along with a clear message without the need of eyes.

Brushed by the hibernal winds reaching this far, becoming the link between mud, snow and ice, two corpses, one of a saint and one of a lie, wingless creature, limbs turned to ice, if I were to say, at least one thing, who is going to take, the place of me?

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Feed the birds!!

Aurora 01 ~I Worship the True and Only God~ 09

From nature, by nature, you must embrace nature
You must go back in essence and form
Before the sin molded your soul
And your body grew with inward thorns
So long ago, they moved on
Away from the grace at the spark of life
To fool themselves in slavery and shine
The rocks reflected their corrupt shrine
Where they pray for self divine
You must leave them all behind
Escape to the tree so tall it reaches the sky
The ecstasy of liberation
The highest sensory cry
The most tender touch of the goddess
To express love to those who have found
I was conceived at that time

The body painted in colors of the sunshine
Yet under the rain that washes all away
The forest is the home
Walls are for those who fear
Out there to return to the animal self
Happy away from deception
Glad in the world without much past
They mated as they whirled
Under the hills and into the sea
Pouring by the wind

She wanted to stay, to remain
Yet they were born deeply into the sin
She wanted to nest there
And hear from the moon a different tale
Each time she rested after the sun made love to her
Come on now girl, sleep inside…

Well, she will try again and again, remember, I was the oldest
She even took me there, oh, youre so lucky, to not have been born there
You see, the sensory thing, It will make you insane
You have sex with the grass and feel so great
Until the effect is over and so its the party
Yet, so funny, she is the one who felt it for real
So she wanted to stay while every other eventually left
And guess who had to be there?
You know, using their words is after the sin
You know, their beliefs are sinful as well
You knooooow, you must forget the experience of your genes
Polluted with sin, of those who didnt repent
I was an animal with my own mother
You must be, impulsive
In hunger, thirst, itch and lust
And I…
You think Im joking?
How do you imagine me, without all of, these?
I, have a different idea for you
That weird body of yours makes you too proud
Lets see how much is there behind
If you cant carry the world on your back
Maybe Ill finish it before it crushes you alive
From rivers of sweat and endless work
A warrior you shall become.

I wont let you be pity, I wont let you be lame
I wont let you cry to nature, be angry at me instead
I enjoy your hate so much, if you could only express
A burst here and there, yet youre still the same
I push forward, its ridiculous, I feel Im killing you instead
A tantrum with swollen muscles, and you return again
I want you to hate me instead of death
Dont you know I know?! youre just like her!!
You go to the forest, you go to the lake!
You want to bring ducks, you want to live with them!!

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Feed the birds!!

Aurora 01 ~I Worship the True and Only God~ 08

Youre gonna be all alone
So in the next few months
Youre gonna grow the years to come
Even if it cost you all
If you cant, might not even be worth
To left behind.

I thought of you at last
As I cut off all other ties
Not that those were much
Its the annoyance to realize
Youre the reason and also the drag
Not that it would change too much otherwise
I guess I am just mad, that I was mad
That was dead but with you revived
And so, the other way around
Youre gonna be all alone
Soon, the day will be empty
Needy, crying, rough
Impatient, noisy, tough
They all will see you with disgust
In the pool of vile and greed
Everpresent with everyone youll see
Youre nothing but their enemy
And you, Im gonna make sure youll be worthy of that
Youre gonna be all alone.

Of him, dont think much, he might not even overcome
He is in a dire situation, as you are, alone
You see, my child, he is about to explode
Relief in the shadows he will find no more
I wouldnt take it personal, cause you know
Right there at war, true colors are to show
You, left behind, are going to be alone
It is natures call
I dont say it in anger nor remorse
They with offer you nothing at all.

From Mother to Child
Blood vanishes in the wind
Their faces dry and peel
Lost in a sense of ill
The sea spreads, the cold lays above
The lines were none, each to their own
There is no going back
To the illusion of once there
Remain still
A stone washed up on the beach
The warm of a birth
Is a game of dolls and casual feel
For the giant overcomes stepping on the worm
Open your eyes and awake your sense of pride
Your cradle is a ghost
The men have gone to war
Might not even return, and if they do
They will go to war again
Attached to this fate.

Your cradle is a chore
The women at your side, none want to take part
You take so much from them
Just breathing that small air
Addicted to the style, they both are
Youre nothing but against, and youre not even ten
The lengths they will go one to abandon and the other to destroy
You have been warned.

From Mother to Child
Ill gift you with a kiss and a bless
As you feel deeply when looking at their eyes
With your great strength you are to carry that moment to the next
When it disappears leaving no trace
And youll do it, all alone
Little Commander of the ashes from the realm
War and hatred calls your name
Are you to tell me, would you rather die with me?
Today or tomorrow, dont you know it is the same?
Little Commander, the motherland whispers a tale
How are you going to do it? youre not even ten
Hahahahaha.

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Feed the birds!!