About: Path of Dolls 09-12

Happiness of Marionette ~Path of Dolls~ ch 09

Happiness of Marionette ~Path of Dolls~ ch 10

Happiness of Marionette ~Path of Dolls~ ch 11

Happiness of Marionette ~Path of Dolls~ ch 12

Lately is been kind of, difficult, its curious to see how just one thing can turn everything upside down, lose our mood and become stale.

The pigeon place is going great, after so many problems with this and that, some have died but those were natural reasons, they breed a lot but also die a lot.

The storytelling is great, now I can draw and write “at the same time”, lots of new stories ready to go, putting everything together, the rhythm, the fun, all pretty good.

But then Josephine starts to die and everything changes, the real problems goes with me not “being able to do anything”

Which is not accurate, from liquid meals to bathroom bed, I keep pushing her on and on, “what part of forced feeding dont you get?!”

The more she goes on, the less violent her death will be, and, the problem, I keep remembering her as normal, and she lives on so I believe is gonna go long.

And then you complain about everything, I shouldnt have spent so much on videogames I play everyday, maybe I should sell one computer… just freaking out about money in general, then you enter some male humor contest you have no chance of winning, I mean, that would solve all my money disabled problems “forever”, but theres only one prize and a thousand more “normal” entries, its like when I wanted to make some theater stuff with miitomo, but everything is lol this and lol that, I mean, fucking braindead piece of shit, I hate people so much… aaahhhh, Im too old and it shows.

Anyway, Im in so Im gonna go all the way and make another or two, you know, of course I have my political ideas, and Im very strong about it, but, ahhggg, being one of this “figures” must be disgusting, unless you really love people or get very well paid, and even then, with the last you just rot yourself in pretentious poison, cause “you always have to be right” and be this moral little… I cant think of anything more boring, its soooo boring, even if its what people attach to, I dont care, Im happy with my two likes a post, and one is mine, I dont care, storytelling is so much better, theres no real limit and you can travel everywhere, you can be the worst, you can be the best, you can be both, or none.

I didnt even talk about the chapters, well, I think the psychological part is not really that complicated, what makes it so is that Aurora is such a freak, hehehe.

Mmm, I wish there was cat diapers.

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About: Path of Dolls 05-08

 

Happiness of Marionette ~Path of Dolls~ch 05

Happiness of Marionette ~Path of Dolls~ch 06

Happiness of Marionette ~Path of Dolls~ch 07

Happiness of Marionette ~Path of Dolls~ch 08

 

He gets “married” and she throws all his stuff away, hehehe.
Wonder whats gonna happen when they get “divorced”, well, in fact, she is supposed to assimilate him and become the last upgraded machine to be with the present core in her infant form, as she awakes from slumber and its process, but Reo does so good that Little Wolf keeps him instead, and there would be too many “Auroras”.

 

 

And reality hits again, you had your nice little adventure, but what now tough guy? no money? no free pass for you, they are already openly calling him crazy, not that he seems to mind much, as he continues his own path.
Oh, and if the Image would have been in fact his mother, I would have needed to write a whole chapter with nothing but “HAHAHAHAHA”.

 

“its just money, how can it be the difference?… cause they wanted that money”

Yaaa, whats the point when you can play videgames all day?

Hehehe, but it would be such an empty life.

That game was Chrono Trigger by the way, not that I play it now, at all, I dont even like it, but it has good nice music, that was the lure back then, and his ancient win98 first edition noisy pc couldnt handle more, n64 is gonna have to wait.

He has plenty trials to entertain himself with anyway, the visualization of his psychological reality and the fight for his own self.

 

 

About: Path of Dolls 04

Happiness of Marionette 02 ~Path of Dolls~ ch 04

Well, it goes to show its not wise to get in the middle of Little Wolfs nostalgic adventures, its better to let it run its course, theres elements of balance after all.

This chapter pretty much speaks by itself and what happened, one side to notice and very important, he does everything by himself, thats his nature, and even when successful, these are social matters, group activities, there should have been thousands complaining about the same, united, yet there only was him, at least at that level.
I could go political explaining their scams and such, and the social engineering of the passive masses, but I am a romance writer, hey, a dreadful scenario only makes it more interesting… I never liked people anyway.
They are not that strong, and Im not saying that to lead your opinion somewhere, they are only part of a circle on the top, once the normality that protect them is broken, they are too.
Thats why someone like lawyer Reo was so dangerous to them, he came out of nowhere with such passion, they couldnt even explain what he was doing and came up with a theory of him being an undercover agent.
Now, if the masses could do 2+2… would be a very different world, wouldnt it?
I guess thats something easy to agree on, the complicated part is where does it lead, to my scam or yours, or shall I call it a trap? cause the self is always right, stubborn little prank… oh just let go and live your life, let the elements of what you are touch this and that, and let go, thats what I do, even writing this, thats why I never Like back!

About: Path of Dolls 01-03

 

Happiness of Marionette ~Path of Dolls~ ch 01

Happiness of Marionette ~Path of Dolls~ ch 02

Happiness of Marionette ~Path of Dolls~ ch 03

 

 

And finally, whatever really happened to the Reo personality, he didnt do anything, but he did something else.

Happiness
He disappeared but I dont need him anymore
Through the vast and empty world
You could do what he could not
My pretty little Marionette.

 

 

So simple yet, so messed up, her father is gone, but hey, you look like him, so you, you will do what he did not.

 

 

Starting by getting a computer!

Hello Miss Sponsor, looking good there, for obvious reasons…

 

 

Hehehe, big breasts, hehehe.

 

 

He finally lost it, you could easily say so.

And whats with the passion about charities? bunch of scumbags, but he has nothing to do with it.

Maybe some unfinished business of old…

 

 

The Image is a means of communication between the dormant core and the shell personality, she is something he can understand, not just an idea or structure of thoughts, he does actually sees and “touches” her, a materialization of the core.

 

Yummy…

She does look like their mother, Ill just leave it at that.

And I had such a nice working rhythm, but Josephine got sick, and I kinds lost my reflexes… ahg, things are more stable but still, at least I can play smash again, I was getting worried there.

But concentrating gets annoying, and Im too tired, the perfect time to push forward and keep working, or just take it easy for a week, lets see what goes on.

About: Wingless 07-10

Happiness of Marionette 01 ~Wingless~ ch 07

Happiness of Marionette 01 ~Wingless~ ch 08

Happiness of Marionette 01 ~Wingless~ ch 09

Happiness of Marionette 01 ~Wingless~ ch 10

With this, the end of the Wingless story, clap, clap, clap.

aaah, kind of, so sad.

Upgraded Machine

Satellite and Demons stories, hold by Adult AuAu.

~You didnt do anything, you have no passion, you have no life~

When did Aurora wake up then?
Its a parallel process, inside and outside, first the core in her Dark Cloud Aurora form finally exploded in desperation, anger, blabla; which created the AuAu personality and the Aurora book happens, while the machine, the Reo personality, keeps running its functions.
As you see in the intro, the core promises to kill the machine, and she starts doing so, until that “pizza incident” happens, she feels about it and changes her mind, perhaps just by doing something fun and ridiculous, and tasty, rediscovering the sense of her life, this is when the adaptation frozen process restarts, something that began once just on principle.
The machine upgrades, thats why so many things change even with he seemly unaware of it, the illusion of love stops reproducing, he finds about his own condition not just flows with it, he starts working here and there, and in general, he starts biting back to an awful reality.
The adaptation process is the next story, Path of Dolls.

About: Wingless 04-06

Happiness of Marionette 01 ~Wingless~ ch 04

Happiness of Marionette 01 ~Wingless~ ch 05

Happiness of Marionette 01 ~Wingless~ ch 06

And now we finally get the machine to tell what the hell was happening in his “life”, think of it as a lets say awoke coma for like 20 years. While being some weird kid he could float around, but when “becoming an adult”, the fact that there was nothing inside the shell became more and more evident, and the problems piled up.

In 4 you see the total disinterest in his environment, and how he makes his way around with no contacts and only half trying, kind of strange for someone with brain damage, maybe he is just pretending  -o-
No sense of future, no friends, no effort is worth doing, and not looking forward any of it, just annoyed at being bored. Now, these are clear signs to be worried about, cause people like these still need money to be, especially with all their apathy, you cant expect them to be hard working, so, where do you get easy fast money?… but here the core had a different, perspective of life.
All that is very superficial though, next you see his personal relationships, and how focused on girls he is, he doesnt care about males, and there is no sign of any grow model, only girls to hang with, and yet is not happening, cause these are normal young girls looking to have a good boyfriend, and he, well, thats the problem, he never expresses deep emotions, and sex is one of them, youd think he would be desperate… he can make it that far because of his personal skills, which are, so strange, to even have.
In other words, his whole being doesnt make much sense, does he?
And then the “Illusion of Love” even he is aware of.
And then the “moving out” forever solution.
Yeah, thats not going to work out either.

In 5 you see the machine dealing with a harsh reality, personal relationships with a shell personality come and go, but hunger in the one and only body was there to stay.

Its very easy to see the lack of deep emotions in “him” and the absence of a future image, the difficult part is getting to the real personality, I guess is kind of creepy, can you imagine? lets say youre classmate with this handsome, funny, confident, strong, smart, kind of very weird guy; you talk to him everyday, eventually more and more, and you get to know him outside the group, it sure has been a while, what was not normal in him, it now is, you can even make fun of him, he doesnt mind.
And, probably his environment was so shallow that he could float for that long, good thing he lived in the city where he was just another ant.

In 6 you get him becoming more aware of his true self, and his actual body condition.

Well, at least he tried, not good enough at all, and as the core said in the intro, she started to destroy the machine along with the body.

She doesnt kill him though, yet, and the timebomb continues ticking, he is very sick from something he knows “nothing” about and he must continue to perform a normal life of in that state.

About: Wingless Intro, 01-03

 

Happiness of Marionette ~Intro~

Happiness of Marionette o1 ~Wingless~ ch 01

Happiness of Marionette o1 ~Wingless~ ch 02

Happiness of Marionette o1 ~Wingless~ ch 03

 

This is the start of the process for the core to be awaken, at the intro you have her giving the machine a last chance, you either do something about this or thats it, and she means it, she starts to destroy the machine later.

And now in Wingless we see the machine from an exterior point of view with the narration set in first person, the same as the Boredom story that was the base for Satellite and Demons, cause is sooo boring to live without emotions of your own, nobody knows you, and you dont even like anybody,  among other boring things. The core is already two, the past does the intro, and the present, the lovely Little Wolf, does messes things up with her emotions that are not, environment friendly.

 

… is always Reo in second place, its kind of difficult at first, but then I think it flows very nicely, I just hope I dont screw up, it gets complicated to concentrate sometimes.

Big breasts.

And of course the present core, in the process to adapt, recovers “where she left”, a “continuation” of Little Aurora, while the machine is an upgraded version from later events, Little Wolf doesnt awake until those happen, she used to communicate to the machine with an “Image”, mostly on operative level, later it goes emotional, in a test for the machine to upgrade or be destroyed. The mold of the machine is the Lostboy-Detective-Teacher personality, so he has enough to go through. And laaater the machine gets reconstructed in the Ceran personality, when Aurora cant keep up with the daily chores, and her pride gets too hurt because…

And of course she is already obsessed with certain emh, situation. Its not exclusive of the Actress, it went on many times, just with her it goes the longest by far, why? I guess she kind of actually likes her, something tells me it wont be mutual.

Why is the core divided? one still lives in the past and her “unfinished” adventures, while the present currently lives, both dormant though.

And in the new story “Eyes Opened Chapter” the core naturally unifies, and you have her at the very beginning opening her eyes but paralyzed “so I created all these personalities, configurations of mind and body, in order to just move”.

At least gives me something to write about! -~-

About: The Puzzle of a Lost Girl 06-07

Reo 04 ~The Puzzle of a Lost Girl~ 06

Reo 04 ~The Puzzle of a Lost Girl~ 07

Pat, pat, the ages dont match but surely interesting, a motherly side.

If I can come up with more about it, there will be a what-if story later.

Not that this is about the actress becoming a mother figure for twokidsinone, dream my dream, is her being able to wake up the core.

Ahhh, being a good boy, sounds kind of, boring, just saying.

Pat pat, pat pat.

And the great mystery of why pigeons in the latest story is now solved, kind of, the little pigeons have a “duck alike”…. beak, so, “the duck of my dreams!”…. -____-

And someone actually did woke up, when the past core takes over, the personalities have some changes from their normal Aurora shape, for example, AuAu, always childish and smiling, becomes more adult and serious. Funny thing, the past core is the child acting like an adult, and the grown up is the childish one.

The “Dont get lost” also tells about it, cause he is going to change while besides Aurora.

With Ceran, the newest “machine”, is tricky, cause Aurora is awoken and uses her to hide her emotions.

But some things never change.

 

 

About: The Puzzle of a Lost Girl 04-05

Reo 04 ~The Puzzle of a Lost Girl~ 04

Reo 04 ~The Puzzle of a Lost Girl~ 05

And with this, we reach the end of the Puzzle story, clapclapclap!
I would say this, but this one went too far so Im dividing in two.
Yaaa, I really like it, and we have the original puzzle story to develop later.
I liked it all and I liked the ending a lot, but where I really threw it very far was at the fifth chapter, was sooo good to me that I couldnt move on to the next two for a few days, even when I had them already half done, at least in my mind.
Now, in chapter 4 you see how the head injuries affected even only with the cycling of the days, so “traveling through dimensions” and getting lost was pretty much certain to happen under those circumstances.

You also see whats later called the “timebomb”, how the “machine” became obsolete, the Original Reo personality couldnt do much about it without sacrificing himself to the new reality, which they all hated, he remained close to the core, who angry was sabotaging the machine and environment, and wasnt waking up, why exactly? you need an emotional process, which happens later in the “Happiness of Marionette” story, that couldnt be done because the core was too weak in head injuries and body construction, at the end, the machine absorbed emotions from the core and updated by itself, then went through that emotional process. It was supposed to be destroyed but he remained until the awakening of the core, who then dealt with the new reality, the creation of a new machine, the intervention of the original Reo personality, and was also divided in two, past and present.
The past core woke up much later, in the “Happiness of Pigeon” story, in which you have the ultimate machine, the two personalities from the past, Aurora and Au from the present, and tons of pigeon action. The title goes because Au cares for the pigeons as she cares for the past core, oh, theres also a babyless pregnant belly growing too much, and she wishes she was fat…

In chapter 5 you see a very, emh, poetic version of the “Forced Relation” story, which also has its own angle, starting with the narrative style of the Aurora stories.

Theres many, many things going around there, but the focus is in the relationship between the old “Aurora” and a person called “Blonde Woman”, cause she doesnt remember her name, neither hers…
Theres a bit more explanation on the next chapter, and I think is very, very intense, not because of the violent dreadful environment which then meets a very well trained by her mother Aurora, but because of the feelings from the “goddess” to the “prophet”, developed after experience, and yes, she is the last link to her cousin and past life.
She seems a lot manipulative, selfish and then meeting the “lost” end, but in the next chapter you see a softer side, with the detective sitting in front of the dormant core, he goes something like “Were even, the food was horrible though; oh, Ill never get to say that”, cause like it or not, the blonde woman was the one who saved her life after the “Hikari accident”.
For them to develop a love where there was absolutely nothing, thats what I find very interesting.